he calls me 'baby carrier'

taken 2 or 3 days ago. 26 weeks.

25 1/2 weeks

how on earth do i have 3 more months of pregnancy?

awful picture, but i took it to show binney and my twitter 'friends' cause one of the regular customers came in today and was shocked that i still have so far to go. he has a friend due in the begining of july (i think) and shes not much bigger than i am.

lanikai

last saturday, may 30th. suuuuuch a nice day.


the bf really isnt great at capturing the right moments. and im really great at looking akward. 24 weeks and 6 days.



and now we are sunburned.

names

this little fricker is going to need a name. coming up with and choosing a name is definitely HARD. what makes it worse is when i actually think of a possible name, 9 times out of 10, the boyfriend doesnt like it. like, at all. anyway, heres a list of possibilities, in no particular order. i'll add and subtract some names as they come to me...

-wren - bf hates this one, says its like ren and stimpy.
-lake - surprise surprise, he doesnt like this one either.
-tegan
-rory
-delia
-remy
-liv
-brooke
-leah
-charlie
-ryan
-olive - the bf said 'no olives!' he hates olives, the freak...
-joey
-olivia
-reagan - the bf likes it!!

brace yourself...

for 30 freaking ultrasound pictures! ok maybe i wont post all 30...
seeing the specialist today was pretty awesome. her kidneys look completely fine, and the scar tissue or whatever it was is now just like a minor wrinkle and will almost definitely go away even more as my uterus grows. woohoo!

ok, starting with the regular style ultrasound images

heres one of the creepy looking ones


a foot


profile of her face, plus her body and an arm


another profile. the protrusion above her head on my uterus is the 'wrinkle' that will smooth out


bottom view of her 'girl parts'


ok, now the cool ones.




umbilical cord going across the wrist and under her chin











another look at her girl parts


yay!

more beachness

im 6 months pregnant. whoa.

i soooo do not feel like blogging. i dont know why. maybe i'll make a list of pregnancy woes.
-leg/feet cramps that wake me up in the middle of the night. sometimes in both legs at once.
-baby continuously kicking my bladder, and everything else.
-muscles i didnt even know i had in my groin area being painfully sore. wanna roll over? ouch. wanna move my leg? ouch. wanna do anything? yeah, ouch.
-heartburn! got it for the first time the other night, thought i was gonna die.
-having to pee alllll the time.
-my boobs are bigger. quit looking!

ok thats not very many things, im probably forgetting a bunch. or im just a wuss.

appointment with the specialist got pushed up to tomorrow, so im pretty excited about that. another ultrasound plus hopefully some answers is definitely something to look forward to. oh and i get to leave work at 11 :]

me and the baby went to check shit out at the beach after work today. look how small the belly looks in this picture!

i took these a couple days ago

not what i wanted to hear...

yesterday at my doctors appointment i found out that there may be some complications with the babys kidneys as well as my uterus. grrrrreat. apparently during the ultrasound 2 weeks ago they discovered that her kidneys may be partially obstructed. what that exactly means, im not sure. i looked up some things online and it seems that it may mean there is a narrowing or a kink in the area that drains urine from her kidneys. my doctor said they couldnt tell for sure, and that shes not worried and i shouldnt either. how do i not worry? she said it looked borderline, that there was just a chance the kidneys were obstructed and that if they are, it often 'clears itself up' by the time i deliver. either way, i have an appointment to see a specialist to do another ultrasound on may 22nd. and then, my uterus...apparently i have a band of scar tissue. normally that would mean that its very difficult to get pregnant, obviously i did. then, i guess depending on how its attatched and where, to my uterus it can prevent the uterus from growing and stretching to accomodate the baby. because im already 20.5 weeks and havent had any problems it seems it hasnt done any of that, so thats really good news. but it does mean that i now have a slightly higher risk of needing a c-section to deliver.
ive gained 7lbs in the past month, but because i lost so much weight from being sick in the begining its only a total of 3lbs weight gain for the entire pregnancy but my doctor said that its perfect and everything looks fine. the hearbeat is fine, i feel her moving around a lot, all the other organs and growth rates looked normal.

i know this isnt the worst news i could have gotten back so im trying not to stress over it too much, im sure everything will work out fine in the end.

:]

i can see her(i still feel really weird saying 'her'. i usually say 'it') moving around. little punches and kicks maybe? its kind of neat but now i feel sorta guilty like everytime i feel it i should stop what im doing and look at my stomach, haha.
other updates, now when i lay on my back you can still tell i have a belly. before it pretty much disappeared and looked like a regular stomach. took these pictures a couple days ago. im half way there...

im losing my belly button :/

ohhh and went to the beach last weekend after we signed a 6 month lease on this studio by the beach. we have our own walled/fenced in grassy yard with a little covered lanai :] move in on the 2nd i think.

looks like an alien

soooo i had my ultrasound today. during the half an hour or so we got to see like every single detail of the baby. 4 chambers of the heart, kidneys, bladder, stomach, arm and leg bones, spine, brain, probably more lol. and its a girl :]
oh and based on her size, the due date has been changed from september 13th to the 10th. we'll see when she feels like coming out though.

this is kind of neat

baby heartbeat :] the loud noise that interrupts the heartbeat is the baby moving. i think.

tattoo baby

summary of doctor appointment on tuesday? im losing weight and most likely malnourished. baby is doing fine and the heartbeat was very loud and strong at 140 beats per minute. the big fail was that i didnt get an ultrasound so i still dont know if this little bastard is a boy or girl. ive got an ultrasound scheduled for the 13th at castle hospital. can i wait another week and half to find out the gender? not really but i guess thats what im doing.
i dont know what came over me yesterday but i ordered one of those at home doppler machines so i can hear the babies heartbeat whenever i damn please. a waste of $50ish dollars? probably. on the bright side, i can apparently upload the audio of the heartbeat to the computer so i shall post that at some point in the near future.
heres my stomach as of last night.

jam of the day~

doctors appointment today...hopefully everything is going well and the baby is growing and all that good stuff. also i should be able to find out the gender. i cant wait!

Head To Toe - Lisa Lisa & Cult Jam

and yesterday all day i had this song stuck in my head but i forgot to blog it

Down Under - Men At Work

bellyface.

starting to show, although with clothes on it just looks like i have a beer belly. awkward.

people want to interview me??

well, at least one person did. samantha, founder of missbehave magazine and the hipster mom hit me up a week or so ago and asked if she could interview me! i was pretty surprised, ive always felt like a pretty bland person with not much to share but apparently my openess about marijuana and now being pregnant is a pretty interesting topic. ive been a fan of missbehave and her hipster mom blog for awhile now so i was definitely flattered and agreed to answer some questions for her. answering questions about myself makes me feel kind of nervous but i did the best i could. go check it out here and here. thanks again, samantha!

death vomit.

maybe once a month im able to write. other times nothing comes to me. i feel like a moron.
im still sick everyday. im getting pretty convinced im carrying a little devil baby, horns and all. which josh just pointed out to me will hurt the bitchload to deliver. great. anyway i finally caved in and called the doctor this morning so they could call in a prescription for some anti-nausea medication. i guess insurances dont like to cover this particular one so it may cost me the assfuck. theres another brand or something they can prescribe that will be covered by insurance but its not recommended as much? dunno that i really want to take it so we'll see.
yesterday was one of those days were i felt thisclose to barfing the entire day. only puked a total of 5 or 6 times but that meant i basically couldnt keep anything down. not a pretzel and a juice box, not a fruit popsicle, not one waffle with syrup. apparently if i have a few more days like that the doctor said i'll have to go to the emergency room and get an iv. which just costs more money but hey at least i'll be able to skip work!
holy hell i just found this picture on google images. perfection.

in other news, led zeppelin is currently playing on the ipod. me and the boy are house/cat/fish-sitting for a week, maybe two. its sorta like staying in a hotel, even though ive housesat at this particular place before. theres even a pool but its way to cold to consider going in. we even went food shopping together for the first time. i like doing things like that and having my own little home...only a few more months hopefully till we get our own place. i belong on my own, not living with someones family. ok enough blah blah blah-ing for now.