death vomit.

maybe once a month im able to write. other times nothing comes to me. i feel like a moron.
im still sick everyday. im getting pretty convinced im carrying a little devil baby, horns and all. which josh just pointed out to me will hurt the bitchload to deliver. great. anyway i finally caved in and called the doctor this morning so they could call in a prescription for some anti-nausea medication. i guess insurances dont like to cover this particular one so it may cost me the assfuck. theres another brand or something they can prescribe that will be covered by insurance but its not recommended as much? dunno that i really want to take it so we'll see.
yesterday was one of those days were i felt thisclose to barfing the entire day. only puked a total of 5 or 6 times but that meant i basically couldnt keep anything down. not a pretzel and a juice box, not a fruit popsicle, not one waffle with syrup. apparently if i have a few more days like that the doctor said i'll have to go to the emergency room and get an iv. which just costs more money but hey at least i'll be able to skip work!
holy hell i just found this picture on google images. perfection.

in other news, led zeppelin is currently playing on the ipod. me and the boy are house/cat/fish-sitting for a week, maybe two. its sorta like staying in a hotel, even though ive housesat at this particular place before. theres even a pool but its way to cold to consider going in. we even went food shopping together for the first time. i like doing things like that and having my own little home...only a few more months hopefully till we get our own place. i belong on my own, not living with someones family. ok enough blah blah blah-ing for now.

bear with me...

since ive seemingly lost my blogging desires but at the same time dont want to abandon this thing altogether i thought well..mahzwell turn this badboy into a pregnancy blog of sorts. so as long as my interest holds i'll be updating this site with everything and anything relating to the little thing growing in my uterus. you all already got the big announcement of my pregnancy so i suppose the next logical post would be to update you on the happenings since then. as of today, i am 10 weeks along. ive been sick. super sick. barfing like a fucking barf-face. ive also lost at least 2lbs. my boobs have yet to really show any signs of growing except for the week or so when they were more sore than you could imagine. i had my first doctors appointment about 2 weeks ago and got my first picture of the baby.

this coming tuesday i'll have another doctor appointment where i'll be able to hear its heartbeat for the first time, and i'll most likely come home with another ultrasound picture. baby is looking a lot more like a baby these days from what ive been reading so we'll see how the next picture turns out. oh! ive also started taking some belly photos. this first one was taken at 5 weeks, right around the time i found out i was pregnant.

and this next one was taken today. it sort of looks like im already showing but let me just tell you...that burrito i ate yesterday has done some damage. being pregnant means my digestion has slowed and all my muscles are a lot more relaxed than usual. that bulge is full of burrito, valentines day candies, and even a krispy kreme donut. not much baby.

maybe i should start taking some from this side so i can document the changes in my tattoo? im thinking (and hoping) that it wont be affected too much.


i ordered a baby book last week..i know its a little early but fuck it. i wanted somewhere to keep the ultrasound pictures and stuff. its yellow and green and has baby animals and kites and balloons and it is super cute.
that is all the updates i have for now...

new years eve recap

i hate holidays. i just dont like them. clearly they are unavoidable. although some are easier to avoid than others, new years eve is not one of those. people have been setting off fireworks for awhile now, probably about two weeks. gearing up for the big day i guess.
of course as soon as i start recording they stop, but these booming fireworks had been going off for about 5 minutes already. they reverbrate all up and down the mountains...it sounds so trippy in real life.

oh and now that i think about it, that video was taken the day before, on december 30th. moving along...me, kel, and his friend went down to the river on new years eve evening. its so crazily pretty down there. i took a couple polaroids, kels friend shot at some tadpoles, and keli caught some. apparently we are now raising 5 little tadpoles.

we came back up to the house, set off a couple fireworks in the backyard and hit up the gravity bong. btw, i officially dislike it. burns my throat and tastes nasty. yeckk.

roaches, polaroid, trail mix. i is happy :]

the rest of the pictures are kind of...abstract. use your imagination. we moved to the front of the house for a little while.



hand held bottle rockets. not always a good idea.


around 11:30ish we drove a couple streets over to a friends house. they had the assload of fireworks.




oh and since when do poppers look like this?? totally miss the old style, twisted up paper balls..these are fun too though.

this could have been a much cooler picture.

right before midnight we walked up the street so we could see pretty much all of kaneohe. soooo smokey.

midnight explosions. i didnt want to miss out on the joints being passed around and everything so i kinda got the least exciting part on camera.

oh and haha i almost forgot. suuuch a stoner moment. i had been trying to catch these huge aerials that were going off and i could never catch them on time. i finally managed to, and then i realized i had been taking a video instead of a picture. which actually is a better idea anyway lol.


thank god we are done with major holidays for awhile.

jam of the day~

easy sunday. coffee, blueberry bagels, writing lesson plans, maryjane, and my boy.

The Chain - Fleetwood Mac

i love trail mix

but lately ive been eating cashews almost everyday.

c-a-t

this is ichabod being ichabod.



this is ichabod being ichabod on a treadmill.

she wasnt feelin me watching her. so she left.


and this is a big bowl of cocoa krispies that we ate in bed the other night.

today, so far.

you wouldnt believe the trouble i went through just to crop this stupid image. apparently im 'ms paint' illiterate. thom made one too!

clearly we havent mastered the virtual splatter paint technique, but im sure were going to have a lot of practice.

in other news, i drank my first full can of monster today. and i liked it.
.99 trail mix is brilliant. trail mix all day errrrrrday.

i end so many posts talking about trail mix...

latte in hand

wednesday morning at work
blue jeans yellow vneck slippers
hair looks like shit

got negative test results last night, which is a positive.

i have an oatcake waiting for me.

yaypicturesyay.

that gets the award for THE gayest blog title ever.
im watching the tyra banks show and um tyra looks like...a shitty barbie doll. just sayin.
so, pictures! i haz them.
this here is a joint. noticed the ash was long, the boy decided to see how long we could get it. why? no idea.


hooray weed!



as im doing this, im also twittering! if you dont use twitter, you probably should. its kind of fun. and addicting. perfect:] you can follow me by clicking here!

speaking of me (hah), here i am, or here i was, on saturday evening


should i go heat up a chicken pot pie? im hungry. munchies, of course. blah @dishes though.

dun dun dun

live blogging from the garage. woohoo. passing the z.o.b around, which im extra stoked about because its been m.i.a for a week or so. ok here are those pictures i promised! the weed were smoking:


aaaand one more:

ok whoa im totally distracted right now...the current conversation is about i.u.d's...you know...birth control. hmm ok. oh! my new ring :]


im eating trail mix again. i swear i could live off trail mix alone.

as promised.

so im smoking a bowl of roaches to send me off to bed. and to do this. this weekend was really awesome. i was looking forward to this weekend partly because it was a 3 day weekend and i kinda just had this feeling like it was gonna be good. i just felt really happy all weekend. knock on wood...i'd like this feeling to stay. maybe those new buds are partially to blame. or they should be credited, rather. yesterday me and kel decided to shoot the loop (drive through lanikai). one joint for the drive and another for this spot. anyone from the windward side knows this spot :]

we ate shave ice at the park and then got pizza on the way home. how freaking perfect?
xbox, joints, magazines, internet, joints, kisses, joints, etc. filled the rest of the night. slept in today and just enjoyed feeling so happy. i got a ring off ebay the other day. i love it. its silver. got a giant marijuana leaf on it. i'll have to post a picture sometime. definitely gonna go enjoy the rest of my xxx vitamin water and fruit&nut bars. t-t-f-n.

and the name of the game is...

silver star kush is what were smoking right now. i pretty much like it a lot. its a really good high. i get the munchies as usual, but wayyyy less than with other weed. and it doesnt make you really sleepy either. just, nice. :] here are a couple shots of the kush and one of it in action. oh and a bonus shot of kel's cat, ichabod. shes fat. mmm just ate a bagel and cream cheese and these new cherry m&ms. super delicious.

its my party and i'll smoke if i want to~

im not actually having a party, although today is my birthday. woohoo! we slept till about 230 this afternoon. this room is like a cave, i swear its near impossible to wake up here. we managed to make it outside to smoke a fatty spliff rolled in yummy raspberry papers. this is the view we had...im not gonna lie, i'm pretty fucking lucky. then we hit up ihop. 3 pancakes with chocolate chips sprinkled on top, boysenberry and strawberry syrup. so good. had to stop in at the pet store, they had so many animals it was ridiculous. super cute puppies and apparently theyve got this 'skinny pig' breeding program going on. which is just them interbreeding regular guinea pigs with furless ones, and possibly rats. i dont know, they were sorta cute but mostly creepy. im wondering how healthy it is also.
anyway...this wasnt much of a weed post, sorry. im currently waiting for keli to get out of the shower so we can smoke again. spliff or bong, i wonder what it'll be...