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im 6 months pregnant. whoa.

i soooo do not feel like blogging. i dont know why. maybe i'll make a list of pregnancy woes.
-leg/feet cramps that wake me up in the middle of the night. sometimes in both legs at once.
-baby continuously kicking my bladder, and everything else.
-muscles i didnt even know i had in my groin area being painfully sore. wanna roll over? ouch. wanna move my leg? ouch. wanna do anything? yeah, ouch.
-heartburn! got it for the first time the other night, thought i was gonna die.
-having to pee alllll the time.
-my boobs are bigger. quit looking!

ok thats not very many things, im probably forgetting a bunch. or im just a wuss.

appointment with the specialist got pushed up to tomorrow, so im pretty excited about that. another ultrasound plus hopefully some answers is definitely something to look forward to. oh and i get to leave work at 11 :]

me and the baby went to check shit out at the beach after work today. look how small the belly looks in this picture!

i took these a couple days ago

not what i wanted to hear...

yesterday at my doctors appointment i found out that there may be some complications with the babys kidneys as well as my uterus. grrrrreat. apparently during the ultrasound 2 weeks ago they discovered that her kidneys may be partially obstructed. what that exactly means, im not sure. i looked up some things online and it seems that it may mean there is a narrowing or a kink in the area that drains urine from her kidneys. my doctor said they couldnt tell for sure, and that shes not worried and i shouldnt either. how do i not worry? she said it looked borderline, that there was just a chance the kidneys were obstructed and that if they are, it often 'clears itself up' by the time i deliver. either way, i have an appointment to see a specialist to do another ultrasound on may 22nd. and then, my uterus...apparently i have a band of scar tissue. normally that would mean that its very difficult to get pregnant, obviously i did. then, i guess depending on how its attatched and where, to my uterus it can prevent the uterus from growing and stretching to accomodate the baby. because im already 20.5 weeks and havent had any problems it seems it hasnt done any of that, so thats really good news. but it does mean that i now have a slightly higher risk of needing a c-section to deliver.
ive gained 7lbs in the past month, but because i lost so much weight from being sick in the begining its only a total of 3lbs weight gain for the entire pregnancy but my doctor said that its perfect and everything looks fine. the hearbeat is fine, i feel her moving around a lot, all the other organs and growth rates looked normal.

i know this isnt the worst news i could have gotten back so im trying not to stress over it too much, im sure everything will work out fine in the end.

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i can see her(i still feel really weird saying 'her'. i usually say 'it') moving around. little punches and kicks maybe? its kind of neat but now i feel sorta guilty like everytime i feel it i should stop what im doing and look at my stomach, haha.
other updates, now when i lay on my back you can still tell i have a belly. before it pretty much disappeared and looked like a regular stomach. took these pictures a couple days ago. im half way there...

im losing my belly button :/

ohhh and went to the beach last weekend after we signed a 6 month lease on this studio by the beach. we have our own walled/fenced in grassy yard with a little covered lanai :] move in on the 2nd i think.

looks like an alien

soooo i had my ultrasound today. during the half an hour or so we got to see like every single detail of the baby. 4 chambers of the heart, kidneys, bladder, stomach, arm and leg bones, spine, brain, probably more lol. and its a girl :]
oh and based on her size, the due date has been changed from september 13th to the 10th. we'll see when she feels like coming out though.

tattoo baby

summary of doctor appointment on tuesday? im losing weight and most likely malnourished. baby is doing fine and the heartbeat was very loud and strong at 140 beats per minute. the big fail was that i didnt get an ultrasound so i still dont know if this little bastard is a boy or girl. ive got an ultrasound scheduled for the 13th at castle hospital. can i wait another week and half to find out the gender? not really but i guess thats what im doing.
i dont know what came over me yesterday but i ordered one of those at home doppler machines so i can hear the babies heartbeat whenever i damn please. a waste of $50ish dollars? probably. on the bright side, i can apparently upload the audio of the heartbeat to the computer so i shall post that at some point in the near future.
heres my stomach as of last night.

bellyface.

starting to show, although with clothes on it just looks like i have a beer belly. awkward.

death vomit.

maybe once a month im able to write. other times nothing comes to me. i feel like a moron.
im still sick everyday. im getting pretty convinced im carrying a little devil baby, horns and all. which josh just pointed out to me will hurt the bitchload to deliver. great. anyway i finally caved in and called the doctor this morning so they could call in a prescription for some anti-nausea medication. i guess insurances dont like to cover this particular one so it may cost me the assfuck. theres another brand or something they can prescribe that will be covered by insurance but its not recommended as much? dunno that i really want to take it so we'll see.
yesterday was one of those days were i felt thisclose to barfing the entire day. only puked a total of 5 or 6 times but that meant i basically couldnt keep anything down. not a pretzel and a juice box, not a fruit popsicle, not one waffle with syrup. apparently if i have a few more days like that the doctor said i'll have to go to the emergency room and get an iv. which just costs more money but hey at least i'll be able to skip work!
holy hell i just found this picture on google images. perfection.

in other news, led zeppelin is currently playing on the ipod. me and the boy are house/cat/fish-sitting for a week, maybe two. its sorta like staying in a hotel, even though ive housesat at this particular place before. theres even a pool but its way to cold to consider going in. we even went food shopping together for the first time. i like doing things like that and having my own little home...only a few more months hopefully till we get our own place. i belong on my own, not living with someones family. ok enough blah blah blah-ing for now.

ive not felt like blogging

heres the last ultrasound pictures i got though. they are really pretty terrible. there was a doctor in training (or something) in the office with me and the doctor and actually, this new doctor lady did everything. she couldnt find the babies heartbeat so she did an ultrasound to make sure the baby was actually still there. it was, i saw its heart beating. she was really no good at all at doing the ultrasound. she couldnt get a steady image of it but the few seconds that she did, i saw its little arms waving around. because ive been so nauseous but didnt want to get a prescription for it they scheduled me to come back in two weeks, i guess to check up on me, make sure it wasnt getting worse or that i was loosing too much weight or anything. so this coming tuesday i go in again. im seeing my regular doctor this time so im pretty sure i'll be able to hear the heartbeat this time. a new picture would be nice too but we'll see.

bear with me...

since ive seemingly lost my blogging desires but at the same time dont want to abandon this thing altogether i thought well..mahzwell turn this badboy into a pregnancy blog of sorts. so as long as my interest holds i'll be updating this site with everything and anything relating to the little thing growing in my uterus. you all already got the big announcement of my pregnancy so i suppose the next logical post would be to update you on the happenings since then. as of today, i am 10 weeks along. ive been sick. super sick. barfing like a fucking barf-face. ive also lost at least 2lbs. my boobs have yet to really show any signs of growing except for the week or so when they were more sore than you could imagine. i had my first doctors appointment about 2 weeks ago and got my first picture of the baby.

this coming tuesday i'll have another doctor appointment where i'll be able to hear its heartbeat for the first time, and i'll most likely come home with another ultrasound picture. baby is looking a lot more like a baby these days from what ive been reading so we'll see how the next picture turns out. oh! ive also started taking some belly photos. this first one was taken at 5 weeks, right around the time i found out i was pregnant.

and this next one was taken today. it sort of looks like im already showing but let me just tell you...that burrito i ate yesterday has done some damage. being pregnant means my digestion has slowed and all my muscles are a lot more relaxed than usual. that bulge is full of burrito, valentines day candies, and even a krispy kreme donut. not much baby.

maybe i should start taking some from this side so i can document the changes in my tattoo? im thinking (and hoping) that it wont be affected too much.


i ordered a baby book last week..i know its a little early but fuck it. i wanted somewhere to keep the ultrasound pictures and stuff. its yellow and green and has baby animals and kites and balloons and it is super cute.
that is all the updates i have for now...

jam of the day~

this group is totally underrated.

Every Little Thing I Do - Soul For Real

as is quite obvious, ive been slacking in the blogging department. im kind of losing interest i think? i dunno i was offline for almost a whole week and i just havent really felt like getting back into the swing of things. heartbreaking, i know.

dun dun dunnnn

ok ok, i guess im finally ready to announce this to the whole world. i am totally going to have a baby. wild, i know. so yup, this is the life changing news i mentioned last month. it also explains why ive been feeling like absolute shit for the past few weeks. ive yet to tell my father and grandmother so if you actually know me in real life, keep your mouth fucking shut! at least for another week or so :]
look at the little bugger...so cute

jam of the day~

monday morning and im feeling a bit better.

Take a Look at My Girlfriend - Supertramp

im sick!

sicksicksick.
ugh.

my girls are back!

calla and sadie are back for a month and im going to be watching them 2 days a week for a few weeks and then for the whole weekend at the end of january while britt goes to the big island or somewhere with her friends. i cant believe how long its been since ive seen them. and they are fucking cuter than ever! i was kind of worried that they'd be nervous around me at first but not at all. all day i was hearing 'i love you danny lissa' and 'danny lissa i missed you so much when we were in nevada'. awwww so so cute.


calla had this waiting for me when i came :]

unfortunately my battery was pretty much dead so the only other pictures i got of them were them playing jack in the box. they take turns taping each other into this box and then sorta pop out and say 'jack in the box'. only they say it with like no exclamation point at the end, totally dead-pan. its hilariously cute.




on the bright side, i will be seeing them a lot this month so i'll be able to get pictures of all their princess games, bike riding, and locking each other in/out of bedrooms. yay!

more glass?

yep, we got a bubbler. i really like it. hits nicely :]





oh and i was up early yesterday morning because i had to go into town for a doctors appointment. the mountains were so nice, like they are every morning so i finally decided to take a few pictures. these were taken through my car windshield so they arent as clear and nice as they should be. you'll get the picture though. hah. hah. hah.




arghhhh. back to work tomorrow...

happy birthday teiana :]

my cousins daughter, teiana turned 7 the other day so they had a bbq thing at the beach from noon till like 3:30. i went down on my lunch break :]


somehow this is the only shot i got of teiana. i think she was running around doing her own little thing. shes in the pink tank top.

her little half-brother, pono. love him, he's so silly.

my other cousins son, wayland.

lol jonah, when he first got there. hes my other cousins son.


crazy little waikolu. scab on his eyebrow, food on his face. lol when i saw this picture he said 'i got food on my face' with kind of a puzzled look. then he picked it off and ate it saying 'its ok! its only chocolate'.


one of my sisters and pono. clearly contemplating something.



my mom helping jonah eat. hes a funny little guy.




he wouldnt look at me :/


kamohaiki really wanted me to get an action shot.

haha kanoe's entire plate fell on his head.

waikolu is at the 'why' stage. asks 'why' for EVERYTHING. i swear he had like 10 questions about that melted piece of gum on the tree.

yesss were related. i am so white.


after all this funness i had to go back to work! laaaaame.